What to Do?

I finished the school year thinking that I could maybe get someone to come a couple hours a day to be with my mother-it is becoming more and more obvious that she needs some supervision.

She eats peanut butter and jelly on toast and drinks hot tea. When I cook she will eat only a few bites and then an hour later will fix herself tea with toast. She doesn't remember to take medicine anymore. She wandered in the middle of the night.

Well, this last week she has been a wreck. She asked me when she was going back home to Pennsylvania. (She and I bought the house together and it's in Pennsylvania.) She doesn't remember where things are in the cabinet (like food) She will wrap up leftovers in a napkin and save them on her tray for later. One day I found both of her jelly jars in the cabinet instead of the refrigerator. It has become obvious that she needs supervision.

As a result I have the rest of the summer to find a placement for het. That means I need someone to care for my son before and after school. It means I need to get the house ready to sell-good possibility I can't afford to stay there too long after she moves out. And it means that I have to hurry up and decide whether or not I am going to change my job-I have an interview on July 14. I don't think they will be paying enough but I'm going because it is what I want to be doing.

"Trust in the Lord, and lean not on thy own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge Him and He will direct thy path." Heard that on the cd player yesterday. It is something I really need to do with all that is happening. I sure don't know what to do.

Lord, last year it felt like You were jerking me around with different jobs openings-none of which worked out. Once again this year you have brought jobs to my attention. Why????? What do you want me to do? Give me wisdom in making choices. Put me where you want me. Please make it very clear what You want me to do. Lead me to a better way of caring for my mother. Help me trust You with my life. Amen.